"Fiction and reality are different, don't mix them up." This is what I believed in all my life. And why should I even believe otherwise? I have watched plenty of movies, played plenty of video games and read plenty of books which resulted in me having a very active imagination. However, nothing I experienced throughout my life even came close to the fantastical things I always used to imagine. I always wanted to fly without any gadgets; I was barely able to jump 4 feet in the air. I wanted to be able to run faster than the fastest vehicle in the world; I could barely run straight for more than 10 minutes. I wanted to be able to see the stars and planets up close; the best view I got was through a telescope I had purchased years ago.
Simply put.... I was simply unable to enact the things that ran amok in my mind. I kept believing that through some stroke of luck I would unlock my latent abilities and I would have a lot of fun with the resulting powers I would obtain. Nothing happened. I lost my will to keep imagining and resigned myself to a life of mediocrity where nothing out of the ordinary would happen.
Did I mention that I did not believe in a God?
Yea.... that was simply because my lifestyle did not need the existence of God. Not that I ever missed an opportunity of diss at the powers that be when things did not go my way. Especially when I was unable to act out my imaginations.
Sounds boring and pitiful right? You are probably thinking: "What a loser!" Well, I was a loser. WAS!
I used to work at a software company that made mobile applications and I had a well paying 9 to 5 job. I hated it. On my way back to my room I decided to buy some stuff from a local burger restaurant and eat in room, alone, as usual. I was about to unlock the door when I got a strange feeling, a powerful feeling of foreboding, as if something was waiting for me. It had been a long time since my imagination had perked up but I beat it down since I had long up it.
I entered my room and saw nothing. It was not that it was dark, I literally could not see anything before me. I turned around and saw nothing; the doorway had disappeared. I looked up, I saw nothing, down nothing, I could see nothing, only my own body as if it were illuminated. I was somehow standing on a surface but could not see it. "Ahh.... I must be dreaming", I thought and felt a bit relaxed. I resolved to take a holiday for a couple of days since the monotony was clearly sapping me of my strength.
I decided to explore this darkness and after looking around I saw a faint source of light in the distance. "To the light", I thought and pursued it. After what seemed like an hour the light got brighter and brighter till I was a few feet away from it. To me it looked like an orb floating in the air. I had had dreams before then but that dream was a bit to surreal. It felt too real. I felt no time lapses. I waited before the floating, glowing orb; for what, I do not remember. I just waited.
I got bored and decided to inspect the orb which I found was floating in mid-air. The orb resembled a glass sphere with a source of light at its centre when I first looked at it but after studying it carefully there were inscriptions on its surface. I held it in my hands, squinted my eyes and managed to read the following:
A deity cannot be made in a single day,
Perhaps this will help you find your way,
All that is needed is a convenient mod,
I wonder what you will do as a Demi-God!
"Interesting poem!", I thought and the orb slipped out of my hand, fell down and broke into millions of tiny pieces. It was dark once again. I decided to wait again to see if my dream would create another source of light. I waited for what seemed like an hour and started feeling my heart racing. My heart rate rose till I was out of breath and suddenly the universe exploded before my eyes. In an instant I saw everything, literally everything. I saw the stars, galaxies, planets, atoms, photons, cells.... everything. I felt as if everything about everything was being squeezed into my tiny brain and the pain was unbelievable. I felt as if my mind and body were being ripped into shreds. Imagine the worst pain possible and multiply it by a million. That was just a trillionth of the pain I felt. I always thought that the human mind and body had a limit to how much pain it could take. Apparently the restrictions were taken off for me. It went on for hours, days, months, years and suddenly it all stopped.
.
.
.
And I woke up with a start. Looking around I saw that I was in my bed. "It was a dream after all. Whew!", I said to myself and began to reach for my mobile phone which lay on the ground, a few feet away from me. "Get over here!", I thought and it flew towards me and landed on my face with quite some force. The only words that came out of my mouth a few seconds later were: "No Fucking Way!"
Simply put.... I was simply unable to enact the things that ran amok in my mind. I kept believing that through some stroke of luck I would unlock my latent abilities and I would have a lot of fun with the resulting powers I would obtain. Nothing happened. I lost my will to keep imagining and resigned myself to a life of mediocrity where nothing out of the ordinary would happen.
Did I mention that I did not believe in a God?
Yea.... that was simply because my lifestyle did not need the existence of God. Not that I ever missed an opportunity of diss at the powers that be when things did not go my way. Especially when I was unable to act out my imaginations.
Sounds boring and pitiful right? You are probably thinking: "What a loser!" Well, I was a loser. WAS!
I used to work at a software company that made mobile applications and I had a well paying 9 to 5 job. I hated it. On my way back to my room I decided to buy some stuff from a local burger restaurant and eat in room, alone, as usual. I was about to unlock the door when I got a strange feeling, a powerful feeling of foreboding, as if something was waiting for me. It had been a long time since my imagination had perked up but I beat it down since I had long up it.
I entered my room and saw nothing. It was not that it was dark, I literally could not see anything before me. I turned around and saw nothing; the doorway had disappeared. I looked up, I saw nothing, down nothing, I could see nothing, only my own body as if it were illuminated. I was somehow standing on a surface but could not see it. "Ahh.... I must be dreaming", I thought and felt a bit relaxed. I resolved to take a holiday for a couple of days since the monotony was clearly sapping me of my strength.
I decided to explore this darkness and after looking around I saw a faint source of light in the distance. "To the light", I thought and pursued it. After what seemed like an hour the light got brighter and brighter till I was a few feet away from it. To me it looked like an orb floating in the air. I had had dreams before then but that dream was a bit to surreal. It felt too real. I felt no time lapses. I waited before the floating, glowing orb; for what, I do not remember. I just waited.
I got bored and decided to inspect the orb which I found was floating in mid-air. The orb resembled a glass sphere with a source of light at its centre when I first looked at it but after studying it carefully there were inscriptions on its surface. I held it in my hands, squinted my eyes and managed to read the following:
A deity cannot be made in a single day,
Perhaps this will help you find your way,
All that is needed is a convenient mod,
I wonder what you will do as a Demi-God!
"Interesting poem!", I thought and the orb slipped out of my hand, fell down and broke into millions of tiny pieces. It was dark once again. I decided to wait again to see if my dream would create another source of light. I waited for what seemed like an hour and started feeling my heart racing. My heart rate rose till I was out of breath and suddenly the universe exploded before my eyes. In an instant I saw everything, literally everything. I saw the stars, galaxies, planets, atoms, photons, cells.... everything. I felt as if everything about everything was being squeezed into my tiny brain and the pain was unbelievable. I felt as if my mind and body were being ripped into shreds. Imagine the worst pain possible and multiply it by a million. That was just a trillionth of the pain I felt. I always thought that the human mind and body had a limit to how much pain it could take. Apparently the restrictions were taken off for me. It went on for hours, days, months, years and suddenly it all stopped.
.
.
.
And I woke up with a start. Looking around I saw that I was in my bed. "It was a dream after all. Whew!", I said to myself and began to reach for my mobile phone which lay on the ground, a few feet away from me. "Get over here!", I thought and it flew towards me and landed on my face with quite some force. The only words that came out of my mouth a few seconds later were: "No Fucking Way!"
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